(Contains: ideologically sensitive material)
In many ways, I've been trying to write this for years and years. Today I finally just did it. I'm still not 100% happy with it, but it's as close as I've come to putting this into proper words as I've ever gotten.
Daily DeviationGiven 2013-11-02
This piece is amazing and unapologetically raw, and I identify with it so much. I've been surrounded by so many people who love God and love religion, and I've always felt like there's something missing inside of me. The hallowed stomach part really got to me.
Thank you ♥
Just ran into this wonderful story. I wish you luck with your recovery, many of us have had the same experience and you expressed it very nicely, especially the host wafer (LOL).
I also dropped by your page and read the New Year's piece. The only advice I can give you on starting your life out as a new born grown-up is this. Do as much as you can while you are young, travel, play, whatever. Be adventurous. It's going to get harder to do those things as you get older and settle into life. And then there's children. I'll shut up now.
Congratulations on the DD, by the way. Only just noticed that.
(And congratulations on the DD! I'm glad it gave me the excuse to read something older of yours.)
Christ died alone. He asks us to pray alone as well as in public and I still believe it is easier to hear the spirit when I am alone. I feel like there should be more alones in this vein, but I can't think of them right now.
Parts of this prose break my heart, but even then here at the end there is hope, or at least I feel there is. Am I babbling? Whatever. Love this.
Now that I've graduated out of high school. I just feel... lost. Just having repeatable questions that goes unanswered. Prayers, that used to be recited, are no longer chanted. It's as if you came out of something that meant something, to questioning "Why isn't it still there?"
Blah. I don't know. But this really sums up to how I feel about now.
As I've gotten older I wonder if it wouldn't be better for children to grow up and then pick a religion for themselves (if they wanted one), but I guess to most people that wouldn't work.