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My name is Kate, and I'm a writer.

I'm a native New Yorker, but I moved to Washington, DC and got a BA in English and Creative Writing from The George Washington University in 2013. I now live and work full-time in Arlington, VA.

I have a lot of varied experience in being published and working in publishing, so if you have any questions about how to get published or how to work in the industry, feel free to send me a note!
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Health updates. / About that poll.

Journal Entry: Thu Jun 12, 2014, 2:52 PM


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EDIT 6/30/14: I went to the psychiatrist today. Meds have been acquired. If they don't work then I'll try something else, but in the meantime, I thought it couldn't hurt to do something different for myself for once. Thanks again to all of you who left be advice, warnings, and encouragement about beginning medication -- I honestly can't thank you all enough, and if I ever meet any of you, I would like to give you a giant hug. You guys fool me into thinking I'm strong, and that's exactly what I need right now.

My psychiatrist was also very good about starting me with therapy right away (she has a few who work with her in-house), so I've got my first appointment tomorrow after work. Here's hoping she's a bit better at what she does than my last therapist. But that is a long story. :|

So, making changes, feeling cautiously hopeful. And sending all of you lots of love. :tighthug:



EDIT 6/24/14: I just wanted to update this gloomy journal with some (hopefully) good news: After much wrangling with my insurance (and a very public meltdown that I'd rather not repeat again :bucktooth:), I've scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist for next Monday. My boyfriend is driving me and plopping me there so I can't run away. This sounds violent but is actually a good idea. :slow:

I haven't replied to folks because I'm being greedy and hoarding all your helpful, encouraging, love-filled comments. I've read them repeatedly. They keep me from chickening out like I usually do, like I have almost always done in the past even though I needed help badly. They continue to keep me from chickening out. I hope you all don't mind that I'm being ridiculous about them.

And thank you, again, for the support and the advice and the generosity. Every time people try to argue that internet friends aren't real friends, I want to slap them and point at you guys, because you guys are incredible and I am so thankful for each and every one of you. :heart:



I want to say, first of all -- thank you to everyone who's replied so far (and who might reply in the future). I value all of your opinions so much, which is why I came here in the first place, and I appreciate all of your honesty and generosity in your answers. :heart:

I made that poll, and I've been thinking more seriously than ever about going on medication for the first time in my life, because I came to the realization this week that one bad day had turned into a bad week, which then turned into a bad couple of weeks, and now, I've been having a bad month-and-a-half. And figuring that out hit me like a train for a couple of reasons:

1. I sure as fuck don't want to go down the awful spiral that began at the end of my sophomore year of college and didn't right itself until the beginning of my senior year, because I don't think I can survive that again, and it isn't fair for me to put my boyfriend or our relationship through that again.

2. I know myself and I am a stubborn asshole, and it took me a year to getting around to going to therapy last time, so I'm basically trying to nip my own nature in the bud.

3. I can give myself all the excuses I want: I'm not making as much money as I want to be to get myself meds, I don't have time to go to the doctor, I'm not really doing that badly so of course I don't need to go. But what it boils down to is this: I am a coward, and I am afraid. I am so fucking terrified, guys. I don't know what it's like to be on meds, and that really scares me.

And maybe it's time to get over that, finally. Because at the point where my boyfriend is asking me if he needs to take me to the hospital twice in one week, and I missed work one day because I couldn't stop crying and couldn't get out of bed -- maybe enough is enough. Because I can't beat my brain's own dark brand of logic if I can't see the end of the tunnel, and right now, it's getting harder to lift myself out of the fog.

Knowing myself, I'm still probably not going to call my insurance company for another week, because talking on the phone literally makes me want to breathe into a paper bag. But I'm reaching my breaking point. And maybe I need to turn that into something productive for once.





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CutToTheSex Featured By Owner 6 hours ago
I hope you had an awesome birthday Kate!!!!
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I hope you had a wonderful birthday, darling. :heart:
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :party: Have a wonderful one, lovely, you deserve it. :huggle: :heart:
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's July 22nd which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

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Happy birthday! :D
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YOU MOST WONDERFULEST OF BEINGS. :heart:
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OH MY GOD, I just discovered the perfect emote for us.

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It's so true and so sad. 
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jade-pandora Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2014
I'm another one who thought I was watching you...  bad baaad Jadey! :spank:
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I have no idea how I wasn't watching you before. I totally thought I was. I should have been.

Situation rectified!
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